Thursday, January 30, 2014

Week 4/5ish: Surprise Blessings

Surprise blessings have a tendency to bring sweet emotions.  If I'm assuming I will receive a gift from someone, I'm usually excited.  However, if I receive a sudden, unexpected gift, not only is it exciting, but it also brings a sweet joy.  After all, I wasn't expecting anything and now I'm a little taken away but the giver's thoughtfulness.  Funny how I often even tend to be more grateful (internally and externally) for those surprises.
This morning*, I received one of those surprise gifts.  As I write this, I'm still incredibly shocked (in a good way).  After our recent miscarriage, I was unsure of where I was in my monthly cycle.  The last few nights, I'd noticed that I looked quite bloated by the evenings and thought that was odd.  But considering we've recently made some dietary adjustments, I didn't think too much.  Friday night, I noticed I haphazardly placed my hand on my stomach the way I do when I'm pregnant (which I never do otherwise).  I thought, maybe I should take a test, just considering I don't know where I'm at in my cycle and to rule that option out.  To my incredible surprise, it was almost instantaneously positive!
Having so recently lost a pregnancy always brings some anxiety to a new one.  However, I'm laying it all at the feet of Jesus knowing that my life and this little life are in His hands.  He knows what's best for me, this baby and our family.  For whatever reason, He decided to give us this surprise gift this morning and we celebrate with expectation and pray you will celebrate with us as well!**
Until next time...
*This post was written 1/26/14 and posted at a later date.
**Because of the situation, I'm not entirely sure of my EDD.  My best guess is that I'm due around the 1st of October.  As of this post, that'd put me between 5-6wks currently.