Monday, April 30, 2012

Week 7: Vertigo or Baby Nausea, Who Knows?

It's been an interesting week.  Last Monday, I started feeling some issues with my vertigo.  It seemed to dissipate later and Tuesday I just felt a little tired.  Then Thursday afternoon, it returned to rock my world.  Ever since then, it's been really messing with me.  I keep trying to wait it out because some times, it'll come and go on it's own.  This weekend, I had the wonderful opportunity to attend a women's retreat with my church.  The entire time, it was on and off, really causing me fatigue and frustration.  Needless to say, I'm going to call the clinic where I've been treated in the past and try to see if I need retreatment or not.

I keep debating whether or not I'm starting to have some pregancy related nausea.  You're probably wondering how that's debatable. :)  Well, the vertigo can cause similar effects and I'm not 100% sure which it is.  Part of me feels it's the pregnancy, but then at the same time, my head feels all out of whack from the vertigo.  It's super hard to explain.  If you're familir with sinus problems, you know some of the feelings you can have when you feel pressure in your head.  Or when you drink one glass of wine: that slightly loopy, unbalanced feeling but yet you still have control for the most part.  It's weird.  Anyway, I don't want this entire post to sound negative, just to let you know where I'm at, as people often ask. 

Benjamin turned three this weekend.  Pretty hard to believe.  All the kids have unique birth stories so it's fun to think back on them.  You can read here if you're interested in his.  Such a big boy!  He thoroughly enjoyed his super hero themed birthday.  Next on the list is Hannah.  She'll be five this coming month.  She's wanting a rainbow themed party so it should be fun too.  Sophia is on the move like crazy, practically running now that she's got traction. 

This week, two friends joined our home.  We'll call them F and B until I get permission to include their names on here. :)  F is a single mom attending the seminary James and I graduated from and B is her almost 9yr old daughter.  It's been fun having them here and the kids love the extra playmates and attention.  An added blessing during my pregnancy/vertigo issues as well.

Until next time...
Take care,

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Week 6: Feeling Great

Many of you know I like to chronicle our pregnancies on a weekly basis. It gives me the opportunity to reflect, give thanks and then recall the details years later. So once again, our pregnancy posts begin. I'll start this round of them with week six reflections.

I can't believe I'm saying this as it's so not typical for me. But yes, I got through the entire sixth week of pregnancy feeling really good overall. Historically, I'm typically pretty sick as soon as the sixth week hits. Needless to say, I'm praising God and giving thanks e.v.e.r.y. s.i.n.g.l.e. day. What a tremendous blessing! It's still early and much can happen over the next several months but in the meantime, I'm super grateful.

So what symptoms have I had so far? I'm tired. That's been apparent. Not over the top so but definitely noticeable. Whenever I go for any length of time without eating (even just two hours), my stomach gets super crampy. But then within 10 minutes or so of eating, it's back to normal. Better than nauseous in my opinion. I just have to be sure to keep a few snacks available. I've also already noticed some other small, non-bloggable changes. :)
We've started the gender guessing game. It's been funny already, especially with the kids. Hannah, our organized, logically minded child says it's a boy. When asked why, she reasons that there are already 3 girls and only 2 boys in our family. So naturally, it has to be a boy. Benjamin says a girl. When asked why, he said, "Just cause." Sophia had the opportunity to guess by high-fiving the hand of her choice. I gave her three tries to guess boy hand or girl hand, even switching it up once to see what she'd do. All three times, she hit the girl hand regardless of which one it was.
James and I have interesting thoughts behind it. Though we'd both like a brother for Benjamin, we know God may always have different plans and we're okay with that. I think it's a girl just because I haven't gotten sick yet. Hannah's has been the only pregnancy I wasn't sick at this point and she was a girl. Ha. Sophia's pregnancy mirrored Benjamin's in most ways and yet she was a girl. And need I mention I've been wrong 2 of the 3 times I've guessed. :) James says it's a boy, just because he has a "hunch." He also says he's never been wrong on his guess. I'm pretty sure we both thought Hannah was a boy but he denies it.
So... that's the fun so far. We're thinking through boy and girl's names. I like to have the name settled on by the gender ultrasound so I can go ahead and give the baby a name and stop saying "it." We're sticking with the boy's name we had last time, Daniel Brian. We're not 100% on a girl's name yet, though we probably have a first name. I'll keep you posted there.
Enough for now! Thanks for journeying with us!
Until next time...

Saturday, April 21, 2012

I used to think being in bed by 10 meant I had no life, especially on the weekends. Last night I realized it's quite the opposite. Being in bed early means I have a great life, and by the end of the day, I sleep it off joyfully. :)

Sunday, April 15, 2012

The Great Big Disclaimer

I never understood why disclaimers were such a big deal.  After my "Pregnant? Again?!" post and a few links shared on Facebook, I get it.  So here is our "Great Big Disclaimer" post.  PLEASE read thoroughly. :)
  • It is not our intention to say we believe the one right and only way to do things biblically (whether that is in regards to marriage, parenting, schooling, family size and so on).  There are many things in the Bible that may be arguable even among Christians but are not related to our salvation in Christ.  Where there is this room, we call it gospel freedom.
  • We also understand that different families have different convictions regarding different aspects of the Christian life.  One family may have strong convictions regarding eating only local, organic foods while another does not think twice about it's regular use of mostly processed foods.  One family may be convicted that homeschooling is the best option for them whereas another family thinks being a light in the public school system is more mission-oriented. 
    • If our family believes the Lord has given us certain convictions, it would be sinful for us to go against those.  However, it would also be sinful if we tried to push our convictions on issues where Scripture is arguable on those who are convicted otherwise.  Clear as mud?
  • We've chosen to write about particular issues on this blog simply for the fact that they are personal to us and allow us the opportunity to explain why we do things the way we do or believe what we believe.  They are not meant to condemn or discourage those who may have differing opinions or beliefs.  If you take nothing else from this post, please take that. 
  • Lastly, these thoughts are expressly the views of our family and do not necessarily reflect the stances of our church, places of employment or otherwise.  Our church has a core set of beliefs that we fully agree with.  Certain issues are considered "open-handed" and non-essential to our core beliefs.  The many leaders and members may have differing views and still be a part of the same body, growing in love and santification in Christ.
I hope these points help clarify a few things about our blogging.  There will certainly be posts where we'll all have to lovingly agree to disagree, and we're okay with that.  We'll do our best to share openly, kindly, respectfully and thoughtfully on any topic we pursue.  We hope our readers will do the same with comments and encouragment.

"Now may the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen." Hebrews 13:20-21, NIV.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Pregnant? Again?!

I feel like I owe everyone an explanation.  Many of you may remember this comment from one of my posts after delivering Sophia:  "Though we're not 100% sure, this will likely be our last biological baby." 
Our current pregnancy is:
  • Not an accident or "oopsie moment", it was simply a blessing we chose to receive.
  • Just as exciting as our first was.
  • Due on my birthday... how cool is that?
  • Rather confirms the first part of that Feb. 22nd post, "Though we're not 100% sure..."
  • A blessing but has no guarantees.  The Lord gives and the Lord takes away as we learned in 2008.
I spent a great deal of the last pregnancy trying to convince James to let this "be our last one."  We always have adoption on our hearts so I thought that was next.  It was a particularly difficult pregnancy and even had the scare of heart problems for myself.  In the end, the cardiologist said there was nothing to worry about and everything else eventually ceased as well.

After Sophia was about three months old, my heart slowly started to change.  Could that really have been the last time I experienced the joys of new life in the womb?  Yes, yes... no... no?  It was hard... remember that part Terra? 

When James and I first married, we said we were letting the Lord choose the hows, whens and how manys of our family size.  But then four pregnancies (one loss), hard physical struggles, and a short 3 1/2 years later, I wasn't so sure God knew what was best for us.  Maybe we could do a better job with this whole planning thing?

Those close to us continued to struggle with infertility or loss after loss while we were determined to make our own choices.  One recent evening, I listened yet again to one of those stories of heartache.  Suddenly, with great conviction, I decided it was time to let go.  As well as I can calculate, it was that same time we conceived.

I know there are many other questions and thoughts out there.  I know some people think we're a little crazy.  And I have much, much more to write on the topic.  But I think this blog has gotten long enough for now.  Stay tuned for more.  And rejoice with us now for the Lord has chosen to bless us once more!

Until next time...


Sunday, April 1, 2012

May Your Power Rest on Me

There is a song that a few of our church members wrote a few years back called "May Your Power Rest on Me" by Joel Gerdis and Neil Robins.  It is hands down, the most powerfully convicting and encouraging song I know - and I LOVE music.  The lyrics are great but the music takes it completely over the top.  Match that up with real life circumstances and it doesn't get much better.

This morning, we sang the song at church.  There is one line that chokes me up every single time I here it.  It says,
"The harder I tried to climb The closer I was to find how great is my weakness"
How true is that?  I try and try to climb up the faulty ladders I've built myself.  I struggle with desperation to be the perfect mom or wife.  I pick up speed and think if I just get on the right path, this time, surely THIS time, I'll get it right.  If I just discipline the one RIGHT way, it'll finally work.  Then my ladder starts to get unsteady.  The rung that I super-glued begins to come apart.  I realize the wood I chose to work with is hollow.  As I fall, God, in His great mercy, catches me.  And I remember, how great is my weakness.  But how much greater is our God in His sovereign powerful strength.

As the song says, though the trial still goes on, HIS grace will be my song.  I can bear all things because He sustains me.  Oh how I praise God for his goodness and pray His power will rest on me.